thanks to him.

I no longer know how I feel, or what to think. I lose all my inhibitions and sense of direction. My self control is slipping, slipping, slipping away. My perception of right and wrong becomes skewed. My thoughts flutter at a million miles an hour. I have flashbacks of the worst thing that happened to me. I feel sublimely happy yet sickeningly confused at the same time. I am beginning to develop a sense of guilt. I find it impossible to justify my actions, yet my actions become impossible to control. I cannot explain a single thing to do with this situation. My mood swings are out of whack. I've become delerious, illiterate, a fool. I don't know what to say anymore.