"I would give anything to take it all back but I know I can't now and I'm trying to fight it so hard...he legit makes me sick."
"I can't sit there and say 'well then I know he's not worth it', he's worth every second."
"He owns my heart, that bastard, and I'm pretty sure he watched it break right in front of him more than once...fuck it."
"I seriously just want to hit him and kick him and scream and just be like 'JUST TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT FROM ME ?' Coz seriously...there's little else I have to give him, he has it all."
"...I don't want revenge man, I want answers. And if I die tomorrow and he still hasn't given me an answer, then so be it. I realized all I can really do is wait."
"Half of me does want to tell him so then he can see how everything he's put me through has affected me and shit, but half of me doesn't just out of sheer fear that he won't care...I was with his sister just before, and we were talking about him...and she said he just goes through phases with girls and he's the biggest heartbreaker out - I had the biggest urge to tell her how well I know that and how much he's broken mine. I can't move on even though I know for a fact there won't be another encounter, I still sit and wait for him to come back for some unknown reason, I have false hope and belief. I know I deserve better but I don't think that...he's destroying me completely."
"...and I want nothing to do with him unless it's unpleasant on his part, the end."
"...I currently hate him for the mere fact that I appear to no longer exist in his life and I can't take it anymore, he makes me hyperventilate he makes me so angry. No angry is an understatement...BLIND WITH FURY STILL DOESN'T DO THE WAY I'M FEELING ANY JUSTICE. And the worst part is I can't even so much as look at another guy because I'm so fixated on him even though I'm nothing to him, and I compare everyone to him and nobody comes so much as a smidgen close...I hate him I hate him I hate him."
"...and when he kissed me goodbye and held me for so long...that was honestly the happiest I'd been in a long while...every time he leaves I think the same thing, that he's going to turn back...and he never does."
"I feel empty. I feel like he's taken everything away from me, that he took advantage of the fact that I let down my wall for him and that I allowed him in; I feel inadequate as if I wasn't good enough for him, although I have everyone around me telling me "you're too good for him, you deserve better"; and I feel so, so alone."
